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I hate, rather I’m jealous of how Hollywood portrays love and friendships. In movies there are always those two girls who have been friends since childhood, they are each others best friends. Both of them feel the same way about the other. I know that my friends love me but sometimes I wonder how important I am to them.
Last night I was talking to one of my closest friends, lately I just feel as if we are growing apart. I feel like I might not mean as much to her as she does to me. It’s terrible when you find out problems your friends are going thought days and weeks after they happen. I’m not the first person she can talk to, which makes me sad. She did not tell me about her latest problem until a week and a half after it happened, all of her other friends whom I always thought were not as close as us, knew first. How can you claim you are close to someone if their not one of the first people you would tell when something happens in your life? Maybe it’s because we go to different schools, she sees her other friends about everyday and me (even thought we live close) one or two times a week.
I really don’t know how to talk to her about this in person, mainly because I feel like she will just think I’m being ridiculous, probably one of the reasons I’m not her closest friend. I know that I’m probably being over dramatic, but I feel terrible that she can’t/won’t open up to me. We’re both growing up and the situations in our lives are changing, she might have the more exciting life as of right now but I still just feel terrible and jealous.
Lately I just feel like I’m losing a bond with all my friend. Two years ago I lost one of my closest friends because we both changed and were growing apart, drama was the ultimate reason for our split but ever since then I feel as if I lost one of the closest people in my life. Looking back I can’t believe I’m not friends with this girl anymore, we were always doing things together, we would spend hours on the phone and now we barley look at each other in the hallway. How can friendships disappear so easily. Ultimately I’m afraid the friendship between the first girl I mentioned and me will end up with us either just being “friends” or us not talking at all.