Anyways, my summer has officially begun. Today I started off my summer by going to work. I actually enjoy working, it’s a place filled with sweet and funny people, most around my age, I don’t mind spending time around them. The job I do is a bit boring, but what job isn’t? My job consists of answering phones and generating letters at a university. I plan on working three days out of the week for the remainder of the summer, the other 3 days I will relax and the remanding day, a Saturday, I work for about two hours at my church.

I am waiting anxiously for my teachers to email me with grades from the finals I took the past week. Here in New York we have to take state mandated exams, the whole state takes this exam on the same day, at the same time. Most take about 1-2 of these exams in each subject. The Regents counts for our final, and our scores will show on our transcripts. I emailed both my history teacher and English teacher for my grades, my English teacher said that our school was chosen to get audited for the Englsih regents so the exams had to be sent to the education department of New York to be regraded and when they got sent back we could know our grades, which means I need to wait for Friday. My history teacher told me three days ago that he would let me know the next day, and still nothing. The wait is killing me. I find myself checking my email every 2 minuets, it’s absolutely insane!

When I find time at home I plan to make a new layout for this site, something different which does not contain flowers.

I hate, rather I’m jealous of how Hollywood portrays love and friendships. In movies there are always those two girls who have been friends since childhood, they are each others best friends. Both of them feel the same way about the other. I know that my friends love me but sometimes I wonder how important I am to them.

Last night I was talking to one of my closest friends, lately I just feel as if we are growing apart. I feel like I might not mean as much to her as she does to me. It’s terrible when you find out problems your friends are going thought days and weeks after they happen. I’m not the first person she can talk to, which makes me sad. She did not tell me about her latest problem until a week and a half after it happened, all of her other friends whom I always thought were not as close as us, knew first. How can you claim you are close to someone if their not one of the first people you would tell when something happens in your life? Maybe it’s because we go to different schools, she sees her other friends about everyday and me (even thought we live close) one or two times a week.

I really don’t know how to talk to her about this in person, mainly because I feel like she will just think I’m being ridiculous, probably one of the reasons I’m not her closest friend. I know that I’m probably being over dramatic, but I feel terrible that she can’t/won’t open up to me. We’re both growing up and the situations in our lives are changing, she might have the more exciting life as of right now but I still just feel terrible and jealous.

Lately I just feel like I’m losing a bond with all my friend. Two years ago I lost one of my closest friends because we both changed and were growing apart, drama was the ultimate reason for our split but ever since then I feel as if I lost one of the closest people in my life. Looking back I can’t believe I’m not friends with this girl anymore, we were always doing things together, we would spend hours on the phone and now we barley look at each other in the hallway. How can friendships disappear so easily. Ultimately I’m afraid the friendship between the first girl I mentioned and me will end up with us either just being “friends” or us not talking at all.

In other news, tonight I’m going to go to the mall to see the movie Letters to Juliet. I’ve been to the mall many many times by myself and with friends, this time my Best Friend Elena will be joining me. She is a couple years younger then me but she is the closest friend I have, we share everything. I’m ticked off that the aunt we share is not allowing us to go to the mall by our selves to watch this movie. I’ll be turning 17 in one month, however she feels that we need supervision so she is sending our much older family friend to accompany us. I don’t understand why I’m not trussed. I love my aunt, but she needs to realize this is not the first time I’m going somewhere alone and that she needs to trust us.

I’m also making plans for this summer. In the first week of July my family and me and my family are going on vacation to an island. I’ve been there before, it’s a nice place and were staying there the whole week, including the 4th of July. The only bad part about this vacation is that were coming home on my birthday, I have to spend about 4 hours in the car on my 17th birthday =(

My graphic design class has been going really well, I’m learning how to use Illustrator, and I love it. I’m going to add some of my work to my portfolio, on this site, once I have time. I have a couple of projects in mind for this summer. My Twitter.

If anyone really cares what I’m up to now a days you can fallow me on twitter, I have a new update all the time. I’m addicted lol.

I recently got a Twitter account! Please add me/fallow me! My twitter